马来西亚首位太空人，自豪吗？

看完程嘉乐写的这篇文章，才知道最近让马来西亚引以自豪的太空人计划的真正目的。偶一直以来都不明白这个“马来西亚首位太空人”有什么意义。偶没听过我国在太空学上有什么研究理论与贡献，事实上，偶根本不认为马来西亚政府对太空有兴趣。

当知道大马政府有机会派个国人乘搭俄罗斯的太空船一游，而大事宣传，引以自豪的时候，偶的脸不知要摆哪里好。马来西亚的国民们啊，你们有曾经为此而欢呼过吗？若有，可以告诉偶你的原因吗？

偶不同意政府花费大笔款项乘搭“便车”送一个毫无意义的国民上太空，在太空吃煎饼、喝拉茶。原来如此，这也是承续了马来西亚 apa pun boleh 的理念，另一个充气球的计划。仅有外表，毫无实际。

Another Boleh Project Brought To You By Malaysia Government.

反贪污局本末倒置，援引法令命令供出短片消息来源。

就算是反贪局也一样。详情在这里。

这就是为什么我们马来西亚人民对政府一点也不信任。就算证据一罗罗，高官政要还是可以继续大摇大摆贪污滥权，继续脱罪，或出国避开记者，再回来当没事情发生过，不了了之。另一边，投报检举的人就得受对付，被当作罪犯般调查问话及威胁，不但吃力不讨好，惹得一生麻烦，还很有可能反被吃官司。司法不公正，人权也不收保障，日夜活得战战兢兢。

警察，反贪局，司法，首相署。。。这些group的头头都有过贪污案涉案的嫌疑。贪污是马来西亚文化的一部分了，是不是呢？

“我不入地狱，谁入地狱”。

还有，“请别为钱而活”。否则你迟早惹上贪污病。

引っ越し

最近引っ越しのことに急いでいる。来週から新しいうちで住みます。初めて完全自分の所が持ちますから、とてもうれしいです。

そんな楽しさを享受しながら、うちを美しくなるために　たくさん家具や電気製品などが要って、困りました。お金が足りないので　安いものしか、買えません。でも、一番安い方法で　いいスタールを設計しに　頑張ります。大変高い家具だったら、DIYで作ろうと思っています。

The meaning behind what we do best

I wrote these few months ago:

“What is your meaning of life? to love? to save people's life? to travel around the world? to invent? to defend your country or nation by putting bullets in enemy's head? to build houses? to make music? arts? to survive? Is there an ultimate meaning of life? Since we're all humans and we're all alike? to revolutionize country? to satisfied own self? to lust? to help other's? to detect tsunami? The truth is, i can't seem to fit any heroic meaning of life behind what i do, what i do best. and tats sad... can anybody out there tell me what's the meaning of me doing music? Why is the business world out there keep advertise to us something we don't need? Am i doing the same? i don't like what I'm doing here, i feel like I'm making trap for the public.” 20/2/2007

I wrote these down few months ago, this is how I felt back then. But now, after few months of grown up, I accidentally found this blog I wrote, and realize I’ve made a big mistake. The questions to myself is, are you putting your mind in satisfying own self? Or are concentrate on creating a “gift” for the people who need it? The mind set is already wrong in the beginning, hence my music won’t affect people's heart, it's just an ego product. If your not putting heart to your song, it won't shake people's heart. I should have the mind set of "creating a gift for the public" by doing what I do best.

It's not too late to realize this. I thank myself for writing it down back then, that's the biggest advantage for writing a blog: to make us understand ourself, improve ourself, and share our experience with others. Who knows? The future is too far away, it may have a huge meaning behind what we do, or some huge impact for the world....... Well most probably not…lol.

Moon. 9/5/2007